Today's thought

You ever felt like you had so much to say but couldn't get it all out. Usually what you end up with is a big pile of nothing. I'm thinking this is one of those days for me but lets see. I had to go up to NY to witness one of the most painful things I have had to see in a while. I had to watch while my baby brother help move his wife and children out of his house!! Let that sink in and stir around in your head for a little bit and you'd be amazed how blessed you can feel compared to some.

My heart breaks for him because he is mostly alone up there mostly because I feel sometimes like we abandoned him when we all moved to NC to try to improve our lives. My heart really breaks because although he isn't the best husband ever born to this earth he is one of the best fathers I've ever known. People say that all the time but many times the remarks are unfounded. His girls mean everything to him and that feeling is amplified now that he feels he is 'losing them'.

I love my brother and not because you are supposed to love your brother. He is a great kid. Sometimes he is misguided and doesn't make good decisions but over all he has a big heart and I just love him. I've never said so to him but of everything I had to leave behind in NY 10 years ago when I moved, he was by FAR the hardest. This feeling has never left me. I feel the most complete when I am together with him and my sister. Like something is back together that has been pulled apart and is so right when its together. We are so good together and I feel like the space between us has been good on one had because personally I am in such a better place here then up in NY but I also get the feeling when we visit each other that we have been cheated of something special by being apart.

Especially for me. I always felt like a father figure (not a good one by the way) for my family since my parents divorced when I was 9. So I feel like when we are together I am better for them.

Now I know I took my brothers awful situation and made it all about me but let my brother get a blog if want's people to read his story. ;)

I guess the bottom line is I feel guilty for not being able to do more but more importantly not being able to be more for my kid brother. I trust someday God will reveal his plan for our family and hopefully all the struggles he has given us along the way were preparing us for something great. Either way I trust him to do the right thing with us. He hasn't let us down yet and I'm pretty sure I won't live to see that happen.

Tell people you love them every chance you get. It never hurts.

Tom Petty????????

Shouldn't the punishment fit the crime? We have had what, 5 years of real crappy halftime shows now for a .0000483 second flash of a pretty ugly boobie.

Haven't we as football fans paid the price for our sins???

What is next...... Ross doing paintings at halftime!!!! (paint a pretty halftime show where there isn't one right nest to this big mountain)

Think about this, every guy playing on stage @ halftime 08' has already had a full on prostate exam... think about it... but not for 2 long.

Tom Petty?????????????